I Am Not Superman
A void can never be filled by a vacuum.
And if a void sucks in cheap trash, it is full for the moment, but ultimately, cheap - and still empty.
I think I finally understand the pain of a parent. Just the other day, AL told me that nothing upsets her more than seeing someone not reaching their full potential.
It is really sad when you see someone's true colors and all that he or she could be, but maybe due to circumstances, depression, escapism... doesn't fulfill it, and becomes a mere ghost of that beautiful potential. It's not even about living up to expectations. It's about being the best person that you can be - or could have been.
In today's rotten world, there still exists people who actually do want the best for another person. Hard to believe but it's true.
E once said, "You don't have to do everything yourself. It hurts the people who love you when they see you struggling like that."
I also finally understand that feeling. People who love you feel helpless when they want so much to help, but can't. And they slowly watch you fade.
Sigh.
Orange told me that sometimes we have to let people fall so that they can learn. It's really not an easy thing to do, but sometimes it's necessary. "Tough love," he said.
I think it's come to a point where I'm finally brave enough to admit, "I am not Superman."
There are so many things beyond my control, and it is a very stark lesson in humility - to accept one's limitations, and still make the best of the situation.
Right now, it's really a case of 泥菩萨过江 (roughly translated: Mud Buddha Crossing the Ocean). I can't even help myself, how can I hope to help other people?
It's time for me to step back and re-evaluate a lot of things. It isn't necessary to be forging forward all the time.
Independence. Recovery. Being the best person I can be.
Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
- Eleanor Roosevelt
And if a void sucks in cheap trash, it is full for the moment, but ultimately, cheap - and still empty.
I think I finally understand the pain of a parent. Just the other day, AL told me that nothing upsets her more than seeing someone not reaching their full potential.
It is really sad when you see someone's true colors and all that he or she could be, but maybe due to circumstances, depression, escapism... doesn't fulfill it, and becomes a mere ghost of that beautiful potential. It's not even about living up to expectations. It's about being the best person that you can be - or could have been.
In today's rotten world, there still exists people who actually do want the best for another person. Hard to believe but it's true.
E once said, "You don't have to do everything yourself. It hurts the people who love you when they see you struggling like that."
I also finally understand that feeling. People who love you feel helpless when they want so much to help, but can't. And they slowly watch you fade.
Sigh.
Orange told me that sometimes we have to let people fall so that they can learn. It's really not an easy thing to do, but sometimes it's necessary. "Tough love," he said.
I think it's come to a point where I'm finally brave enough to admit, "I am not Superman."
There are so many things beyond my control, and it is a very stark lesson in humility - to accept one's limitations, and still make the best of the situation.
Right now, it's really a case of 泥菩萨过江 (roughly translated: Mud Buddha Crossing the Ocean). I can't even help myself, how can I hope to help other people?
It's time for me to step back and re-evaluate a lot of things. It isn't necessary to be forging forward all the time.
Independence. Recovery. Being the best person I can be.
Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
- Eleanor Roosevelt
February 19th, 2007 at 12:31 pm Hey Nat, hope you'll get over your quarter-life crisis soon. It isn't necessary to be forging forward all the time, you said, and it is true. There are times in life when you need to rest and recuperate, and others when you have the energy to forge ahead and also help others. Right now, it sounds like you have the dire need to breathe deeply and focus on yourself.
What others did is their business; just make sure you are not affected. Some manipulate others' feelings to make themselves feel good, but you don't have to get into the whole thing and feel bad yourself, even if the person they are manipulating is you. Step back, and focus on being stronger than them.
Most importantly, give thanks that you have this life and everything in it to let you learn, grow and evolve. Thank God :)
That's my penny for your thoughts. If you think I'm a kaypoh, just tell me to shut up ok? I can always step back and still smile.
Hugs! (free hugs anyone? I saw such a sign being carried on Orchard Road before)
February 19th, 2007 at 8:47 pm Hey Nat, it's okay not to be superman, it's okay to fail. It's okay to be human.
Tried to add you on msn. We should finish the conversation that just only got started that night.
February 20th, 2007 at 1:03 am meooowww... superpowers are only given to delusional cats. chin up dude, breathe and smile. take care...
February 20th, 2007 at 12:30 pm well you know pretty much you tried your best & if it doesn't work, at least you know you tried.
haven't been talking to you, but ya know i'm just 8 numbers away/a mouse click away whenever you need.
remember how i said i'm not superwoman too?
& you sent me the song? hehe.
i think you're superman though! hurhur...
sayang la hockays.
gong hei fatt choy ah.
now cny, no good to start off so pessimistic k?
February 20th, 2007 at 4:02 pm Nat..follow your heart.. I believe in you... whatever you are going through right now, know that God is right there in your valley with you.
He is holding you in His arms and carrying you through the valley. Victory is already yours.
Daybreak is just round the corner!
Big hugs!
February 22nd, 2007 at 10:41 pm I turned to my calender,saw this phi 4:19, hope you are encouraged! Be happy (快乐)!cheer up dude!
November 17th, 2007 at 11:43 pm ur frns have said wat i wanted to..
to add on, they are still ppl who want the best for others. This is the group of close and concerned frns. They want you to excel in whatever you pursue. Sometimes at their own expense.