Stuck Waiting
I'm typing this at TCC now while waiting (and waiting, and waiting) for my friend to arrive for dinner. Yes, the dreaded last minute office work strikes again.
I'm hungry and I'm irritable (a hungry Nat is an angry Nat, remember?) but thankfully, I've got my laptop with me. The wonders of modern technology :)
Scanned for available wireless networks. Only ONE - a measley, pathetic ONE - wireless access point turned up in the scan, and as Murphy and his stupid Law would have it, I couldn't connect to it. "The wonders of modern technology," I said. Okay, I take that back.
At least there's still good ol' trusty "Notepad.exe".
Recently there's been lots of stuff on my mind. Again and again, the recurring theme of a huge question mark pops up. I hate it whenever things like this happen, whenever I can't see or plan my life or my future, where it's just a game of waiting for what's next, waiting for something to happen so that I can make my next move.
It's so easy to just rant on impatiently about the state of things. But Life has taught me that at times like this, God is actually trying to teach us something - probably faith or humility or simply, to just stop whatever we're doing and just appreciate those few rare moments of absolute silence.
Many times in Life, we only see things with our human eyes, with our human understanding. It's like being say, a double bass player in an orchestra, or speaking from experience, singing the bass part in a choir. During rehearsals and stuff, you just get so bored with your assigned part. You're thinking, damn, this is totally boring and repetitive. I wish I were playing or singing a more important part, maybe the melody - anything. Just as long as it's more exciting than THIS.
But we can never understand the grandiose chorus and soaring harmonies envisioned by the Composer of the piece, till the Conductor puts everything together for the first time. That's when our eyes open. That's when we actually see the beauty and marvel at the magnificence of the Masterpiece.
So yes, although I'm raring to go, raring to move forward, move somewhere, I shan't. Firstly because I can't anyway, at least, not until things start moving. So in the meantime, I'll just hold myself back, difficult as it is, and humbly learn to accept that Life isn't always about moving, sometimes it's also about resting.
I'm hungry and I'm irritable (a hungry Nat is an angry Nat, remember?) but thankfully, I've got my laptop with me. The wonders of modern technology :)
Scanned for available wireless networks. Only ONE - a measley, pathetic ONE - wireless access point turned up in the scan, and as Murphy and his stupid Law would have it, I couldn't connect to it. "The wonders of modern technology," I said. Okay, I take that back.
At least there's still good ol' trusty "Notepad.exe".
Recently there's been lots of stuff on my mind. Again and again, the recurring theme of a huge question mark pops up. I hate it whenever things like this happen, whenever I can't see or plan my life or my future, where it's just a game of waiting for what's next, waiting for something to happen so that I can make my next move.
It's so easy to just rant on impatiently about the state of things. But Life has taught me that at times like this, God is actually trying to teach us something - probably faith or humility or simply, to just stop whatever we're doing and just appreciate those few rare moments of absolute silence.
Many times in Life, we only see things with our human eyes, with our human understanding. It's like being say, a double bass player in an orchestra, or speaking from experience, singing the bass part in a choir. During rehearsals and stuff, you just get so bored with your assigned part. You're thinking, damn, this is totally boring and repetitive. I wish I were playing or singing a more important part, maybe the melody - anything. Just as long as it's more exciting than THIS.
But we can never understand the grandiose chorus and soaring harmonies envisioned by the Composer of the piece, till the Conductor puts everything together for the first time. That's when our eyes open. That's when we actually see the beauty and marvel at the magnificence of the Masterpiece.
So yes, although I'm raring to go, raring to move forward, move somewhere, I shan't. Firstly because I can't anyway, at least, not until things start moving. So in the meantime, I'll just hold myself back, difficult as it is, and humbly learn to accept that Life isn't always about moving, sometimes it's also about resting.
December 29th, 2005 at 12:04 am "Peace is a journey of a thousand miles and it must be taken one step at a time." - Lyndon B Johnson
December 29th, 2005 at 1:52 pm passerby>> nice, i'll put it in my "wise words" quote box :)
December 29th, 2005 at 6:45 pm go ahead, unfortunately, not my personal wise words, otherwise, I'll be famous!
I think we humans are very individualistic creatures. It is easy to fall into the thought of fulfilling the 'I' desire without caring for where we fit into the big picture. Sometimes, we even question whether this is the WRONG moment, or the RIGHT moment, or even the PERFECT moment for doing certain things. Even if it is, how would we know ?!
I choose to believe in the GOD moment, which is His perfect moment for me at that particular time. I mean what else can go really bad when we choose to trust in God in an already complicated world ?!